Chapter 7 - Darkness

With every love that had ever entered her life, she had become lonelier. That feeling... that thought... that it was her destiny had gotten stuck in her head over the years.

 

"It's my destiny..." she sighed.

 

One last move. She had dreamed of it for many years and wished for it for many years.

 

"Someday... someday... I'll be where my real home is. Free from all constraints. Free and alone ...", her gaze fell to the ground at this thought.

 

"What has my beautiful old soul done? What have I done that I ascribed such an existence to myself?” Xeria sank into thought for a moment.

 

Still lost in thought, she packed up the remaining boxes.

 

"Done. What accumulates over the years.”, she was amazed and let her gaze wander over her moving boxes.

 

"Maybe things will finally calm down. It is a well-known fact that hope dies last.” went through it her head.

 

"But with my luck..." she thought further and interrupted the thought for a short moment.

 

"With my luck and my destiny... my knowledge..." she continued the thought and shook her head.

 

"At least some rest. A little bit.” She said to herself in her mind.

 

Once again she looked over all her moving boxes. Then she turned off the light and pulled the door shut behind her.

 

Tomorrow they would pick up the boxes to bring them to their new home.

 

"Do not turn around. That place is now in the past. Once and for all past.” her head admonished.

 

The place that had become her adopted home. The place where she actually felt at home for a while. The place that changed everything as events began to roll over and things became more and more dangerous.

 

It was time for a fresh start. Time to reflect on their destiny and the reason for their earthly existence. It was time to retreat to a quiet place.

 

Her new home was remote. A small house surrounded by meadows and fields. And not far from there were forests and mountains.

Xeria enjoyed the silence that surrounded her. This is what she had imagined. That was what she wished for. But this place still had a catch. If something were to happen to her, she would not be found anytime soon. Life had made her a recluse.

 

"But who's going to miss me?" she asked herself.

 

“When everything has left you, aloneness comes. When you have left everything, loneliness comes.” An old quote from Friedrich Schiller occurred to her.

 

She had lost all allies over time. Some died, others disappeared without a trace. But the memories stayed. Each day had the power to be a memory. Good how Evil.

 

The others. The others and the light. She had rarely contacted the Light and after the moving... She tried to let go. Letting go of all the things that had taken her so much over the last few years. But she didn't succeed. Never, she would forget something. Even if she wanted to. She can not. All the memories keep coming back over and over again. All of a sudden out of nowhere. An eternal cycle.

 

"It was all lies," she scolded angrily at the thought.

"You all left me behind. Just given up. As if I had never been there. There was no one left to talk to. You just left me to my fate.” It infuriated her. Over and over again, when she thought about it or when a memory came, she would get angry.

"You lied to me. you betrayed me you have let me down None of you were able to save me when I was attacked. Well, I'm not your "problem" anymore. I trusted you, I just wanted to be with you and I believed I was one of you. What a naive mistake.”

 

How many times had she thought those thoughts? How many times had she said those thoughts out loud?

 

Anger got the better of her and Xeria decided to get out into the fresh air for a short walk. It was the end of October. The sky was gray and overcast. The harvest had long since obtained and the fields and meadows lay fallow. The leaves of the trees fell gently to the ground. The first frost had already made itself felt. Fog rose. And daylight was slowly giving way to twilight.

 

Xeria had calmed down a bit and returned to her hut. Once there, she lie some firewood on her arm and entered. The fire started to crackle in the oven and soon made the kitchen a little warmer. Warmed up and satisfied, she began to prepare her dinner. It was dark outside when she finished all the work. She sat at the kitchen table for some time and looked out into the darkness.

 

A strange feeling came over her. A feeling she knew but hadn't had for a while. For the first time, here in her new home, there was this feeling. The feeling of not being alone. But who was the invisible guest? Was it one of the "others"? Were they still alive?

 

Were they looking for her? Have they been in trouble? 

Am i in danger? Because all my knowledge about things I shouldn't know...? Or had his revenge time come? His revenge, which he had sworn to her. Did I miss something?

 

Xeria remembered the conversation with her worst enemy. She still hadn't figured out what had happened back then.

"What the hell...?" she blurted out.

 

Thoughts began to spin. She went into her study and dug the "light" out of a Box that was still unopened in a corner. Because as soon as she would open this box, the past would come back into her life. All the things that had happened in the last few years. All the people she met and lost again. Endless a lot of notes... All the pictures from her dreams. All the questions she still didn't know the answer to. Everything comes back the moment she would open this box.

 

 

Xeria knew exactly what to expect and she knew exactly what was about to happen. It was her destiny. She had no choice. Everything starts over and ends when she has fulfilled her determination.

 

"Or he destroys me!", she added, as if someone had just told her her story.